2 Months

The journey to my desired bod is long way to go, but so far so great. 

Tapi terima kasih kat kesayangan saya sebab bagi semangat dan latih saya.

I LOVE u babe ~

Then and Now

Me before training, one month ago

Me one month after training with my significant other

How time went by so fast.
And I have changes in my life.
From a divorcee to meet a new person and broke up again to be with someone's new.
From being miserable bitter guy to unhappy to finally be happy.
From fat to skinny and currently trying to bulk up.
From not working for few years to starting my toys business and now joining back my old team at Harper's Bazaar.

and the best part of the whole experience is?

Am NO LONGER angry or blaming myself or anyone for whatever shitty thing happen in my life or how it affected others.

Future is blurry but at least am well put together now than before.

29th of July

July 29th is where we start, 

Unravel my feeling and art, 

Needing you in my lonely cart, 

As night stars as our proof, 

In love, sky high through the roof, 

Delicate, cold, warm and aloof.

And everything runs smoothly, 

Sweet, non drama, oh so lovely, 

Right away we are a match, 

Universe isn't too big to catch, 

Looking bright as our future hatch.

Nature

Starting to appreciate nature more than human 

Stars

Went on a date last day with my signification other.
Went to PCB cause I want to check out some of those small street art there.
We stayed until night, cause there's a live Kelantanese folk music and something magical happens.
We sit nearby the beach and the stars appeared.
And this wasn't something I planned.

Posted on my facebook, a month or so, about me wanting to see the night of stars with someone I love and it happens organically.

Last night was SO AWESOME!

J

You make all the bad choices became memories
You make me happy, J.
Like really, really happy.

Updates

My businesses are getting great and finally got approved as an official dealer for my favorite toy brand.

Been dipping into a lifestyle as a modern farmer, went from size 36 to 28, am a vegan now, proud parent of some animals (cats and I even have some chickens and ducks! Hoping to get some lambs and maybe a horse?) 

and finally I am officially dating someone!

Konon nak lari dari jodoh dengan orang Kelantan, sekali baru tahu my significant other pun orang Kelantan.

Dia cikgu dan dia suka tease me about the loves of chicken even am a Vegan. haha.

But that Kelantanese really make me happy.

No dramas, no lies just a simple person who's not complicated.

I am happy and that person makes me want to realize my dream to be a modern farmer on a larger scale.

And am saving up for something that I really want for the longest that I could remember.

I want to be a dad with my partner. 

=)

7 Tahun

Akhirnya cerita selama 7 tahun dah habis, walaupun dihabiskan dengan penamat yang buruk, tapi satu yang boleh saya belajar dari Wonder Woman dan Captain America (dua adiwira yang paling saya suka), kita kena kuat dan belajar untuk lepaskan benda yang lepas.

Forgiveness

I know am not an easy man to live or deal with.
And I apologize for that.
And I forgive you for everything you have done.
Wish you all the best in life.
Wish we didn't end things badly.

Raya

Bulan Puasa was a rough one for me. 'Someone' broke my heart but with time, am completely healed. Kinda excited for Raya tho.

Alone

My friend of mine went on a date. He was excited to be on a date after he was dumped by the love of his life who cheated on him for few time.

He was miserable and hate being alone but he can't take the cheating and nasty names calling anymore. They ended up their not-so-happy relationship after 5 years.

I tried to sugar-coated that there will be a person who's just right for him out there. I mean, he is handsome, nice, funny and a dreamer. A great catch.

Back to his first time on a date. He was nervous because he texted me earlier and told me he's going a late night supper date.

Once again, he was on cloud nine, but it only lasted for few moment, after his date told him, "You're not my type. Sorry."

He went home, crushed and before he could asked him on a text why he wasn't the type, his date blocked his number.

He texted me his date's pic, and my God, that person should be lucky to date my friend, yet demanding a modelesque guy?

People are mean and if someone who's cute like him can't land a second date, what would happen to someone like me, who's a decent looking and most average at everything?

Make me wonder if it's better to be alone, doing the things that you like, than being with someone who's in the end will end up break your heart and run away when someone's prettier come along?

Tom Hank

Somehow these days I prefer to be alone than spend time with anyone who loves the smartphones and can't talk

Comfortable

What happens when we are comfortable?

We don't put an effort and everything seems like a free will.

But when we are too comfortable?

We start not to care and seek excitement elsewhere.

Because maybe it's easier to start over than fix what's broken.

The Day I Almost Die

Today, at 8 pm, Friday, 14 of April 2017, I almost die.

I had a heart attack, while am alone at home.

One hour struggling with pain and no voice and no one to call.

At the moment of dying, I thought, that's it!

Goodbye everyone and my cats.

But, at the moment of weakness, all of my anger, sadness and hate are all gone.

I was given an opportunity to live for another day.

And all of those doubts, stress and pain are no longer important.

Because I just want to be happy and died in the place where I truly call home.

Speechless

Lately, I have been thinking what would Lee Alexander McQueen would do if he's me?

L

The fine line between reality and fantasy... I guess we are all silly to fully believe in love ~