Goodbye

Dearest,

I feel certain I am going mad again. I feel we can’t go through another of those terrible times. And I shan’t recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can’t concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don’t think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came. I can’t fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can’t even write this properly. I can’t read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that — everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can’t go on spoiling your life any longer.

I don’t think two people could have been happier than we have been.

Think With Your Brain, not Penis

We are living in the world where even the ugly, fat ones are jerks and prefer to date someone who's fashionably skinny.

and the worst kinds bitch about the pretty ones don't want to date them.

Oh, DUNIA ~

31

Someone's one year older today.
The kids and I wanna wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
We hope all of your dream and hopes will come true.
A little less temper and a little more fun.
and there's a cheese cake in the freezer.

Being 30 Part 1

2014 was a wild, twisted year.

Some are great, some are not.

Moved to new place and got bigger room for the kids.

Lost two of my best friends and I managed to be on non texting part with one of them due to shitty things.

And for the first time in my life I was stuck in the most horrible flood of Kelantan's history. It was pretty rough living without clean water and electricity for almost two weeks.

But the WORST part of 2014 was seeing some of my kids died. It was the worst feeling in the world.

Despite all of it, and secretly I hope to turn back time to fix some of the problems, I could say 2014 was treating me well. 

and oh, I'm going to be 30 this year ~

fabulous!

29

While am officially, nearly hitting other age box, somehow I don't feel old.
Maybe because there are so much more that I want in my life, before I die.
But if this is the end of the road, I'm gladly say that I am happy and fulfill.
Sometime you don't need the world, you just need someone that love unconditionally.

The Cheating Curve

"I'm not afraid if you cheated on me physically. But what scares me the most was, if you cheated emotionally," James whispered, almost silently to his beloved partner.

30

While this year is not officially over yet, I can't help but to start planning on next year.

I will give myself a year to buy what I really, really want for ages, which is a food truck.

Talked to my significant other, and my babe's on board, supporting my plan.

I might fail miserably, just like my attempt to wrote a fiction novel, I will try and work my ass off for my dream.

Amin.